Victory!

Hello Beloved,

What a magical season we are in, no? Today, I must admit, I find myself stressed. Both of my girls and I have a cold that seems never to go away. We have no water, as a toilet was running all night last night thus effectively draining our holding tank. Our propane tank is almost empty and when I called yesterday for a refill, they said they may not be able to get to us today. And in all honesty, I've just been something of an emotional wreck yesterday and today. I have been seeking victory over these stubborn emotions, you see.

It's been a very slow process of waking myself up again and reminding myself of the Truth. At least it always FEELS like it is slow. With every breath that I am mindful of, I find myself letting go. With every thing that I can be grateful for, I find I begin to remember. And with every moment that I choose to be fully present in, I am aware of the Perfection of All That Is. In the back of my mind through these past two days, this one sentence has been taking root:

"Know that we attain God when we Love, and only that victory endures... in consequence of which no one is defeated."

This is just such a breath of fresh air to me. Literally, it feels like my hungry soul finds nourishment here. It's difficult to explain otherwise, but if you've experienced this, then you know what I'm talking about.   :-)

THIS is the victory that I seek. Not the fleeting victory of getting the water fixed... again. Not the seemingly satisfying completion of having a clean house... (though this one could be a whole other blog). Not the ego's desire to be the perfect mother who can do it all and never speak a sharp word. But THIS. THIS victory in consequence of which no one is defeated. THIS victory that is the only one that endures. I will be satisfied with nothing less than "attaining God". And so, I find, I will be satisfied ONLY when I Love. And the only moment that I can ever Love is right now. This very present moment.

How many times do I find this to be the answer? Over and over again the answer? It's like Love Itself calls to me... underneath all of the crabbiness and overwhelm, it calls to me. "Come back," She says. "Return to Me now. Right now. For there is no other moment of Return except for now. And in this 'now', know that all that is asked of you and all that you are truly asking of yourself is to Love. Stop the rushing. Stop the complaining. Stop all of the desperate attempts at keeping up. And Love. Love this One standing before you now. This husband. This child. This friend. This stranger. Love this One. And in THIS you will find victory, the kind in consequence of which no one is defeated."

Blessings!

Serafina

P.S. The following book has been incredible as a tool for remembering "right now", for it is the only time and place that we will find the true rhythms of Peace.